This is a chaotic night, there is no clear moonlight, only the street light glare threw himself a cold-blooded teasing the moths. All the cars a hurry to rush to the destination, to a vivid life, from one pile to another place, called the tour. Some people his entire life in this rush of car, did not stop before, even if it is to enjoy yourself walk or run over the tracks, he had only a hurried pass, when to rest at night, he is also considering a: how like Tomorrow be able to go faster. Cycle, ad infinitum, until the fall of that day.
The city called Shanghai, there are many such busy-looking people and different is that many of monk without a clear destination, it also walked away, but taking the loss, it also feels extremely uninteresting in the walking .
Such a person, not the number of small bar. I say, not Ah Q spirit in trouble, but look left and right out.
My name is Jinpeng, was also re-dispersed to daughter Kim, Kun Peng Peng spreading their wings. I was the hero of this article,. The author is my friend, I am well aware, we are in the university along with fetching water, together with Ben in the bath house girls learn to whistle blowing cronies. Authors called Bin son, ability to write better, people grow ---- hey, at least better than I am poor. But he is too independent a ---- who do not understand things a bit, a little Dazhiruoyu (commonly taro taro) ... well good, that he did not come to a halt, and angry toss up pen, I had the saliva on the white stream.
Looking back now that graduation is four years, but now the feeling on the street hit by a moth or Na Zhi, the difference is that now before my very eyes this lamp is dark and, not less brighter.
Think about four years, a little bright lights, or any bar.
Just left school when the light is still flickering, and that year's employment situation is not so good, many students were diverted to do IT, and continue to uphold the arms of the profession is basically cream of the crop. Has never thought of their own ambition, but rather how to do? Do? Take one month's salary count the number of standards? The idea is very simple, very simple process. Because now that boy did not become as famous as Charles Zhang Li Wan-like figure, said that experience is now up and no one would be interested, but that time told me to get acquainted with a girl.
What I forgot her name, and do not want to think, Bin child you are not allowed to hit me, so today you may also kick in. I had finished writing. Good is good, so continue to write ---- However, the memories and people always like to joke, I am now able to remember her together many of the happy moment, of course, including the separation of those days. Looking back, these days add up to no more than a month, not afraid of you a joke, this is my first girlfriend (if you can so call it). Said earlier, had just graduated when the Na Zhandeng was flickering, and fortunately, this time, with these lights candles.
And her understanding of the time just to find a good way to work. At that time, the work is to learn how to use the company's resources to make your favorite thing ---- you do not laugh, began to sneaky to OICQ loaded to a computer, when really proud呀! Oh, forgot to say, and I had to do is to IT and electrical engineers, good and bad is not fully displaced. Gao Ding company's network is also regarded as a piece of cake.
It is so decided OICQ know her, sorry do not remember the name now or do not want to think. At that time she was not in Shanghai, it seems that in Sichuan bar. She loves to laugh, but also a very tactfully Chuanmei Zi accent, like that aftertaste of Sichuan. Ke Hao her skin, and thin like a smooth satin, can not help but want to pick up a Jiaoren afraid of her pain. Saw her understanding of the Internet is nothing but a week after the bar. I do not remember how knowledge, and at that time the network has not been so cunning and dark, unlike the dinosaurs and pustule is now so rampant cheating Zhongliang. She looks exactly the same pictures, but until the eye socket is the dark, like the train did not rest, or a good period of time without a break. Then I figured out: she had just separated, and a boy.
I do not understand when she chatted with a bit of pressure did not, and very easy philandering, but met, the things I did not imagine as a. Of course, you do not look like a skeptical, I admit that we are living together, which I do not hide, do not want to此地无银三百两However, I am not a grass is always greener or Boqingguayi, but, life is not like this , this is untrue, I gradually came to discovery.
Our understanding is mutual attraction circumstances, and before I was this close to have any illusions: it is a primitive desire and impulse bar I think. However, I would now like to reason that we chose to separate from each other because we recognize that this is a very close to the illusion of wishful thinking, the original time when we are really faced with, it was found because the other side, though sometimes dazzling light given, but, but it is the kind of glass covering the light bulb's role, rather than the torch that flaming glory.
After breaking up, I am a little frustrated in their emotions low, when the purpose of weekdays and eyebrow good cold-called the station owner to my side, like grasping chicks screw up from his seat, like me, you know, I was downtown and this guy turn, and I admit that some problems using the corporate network chat, but, this guy's performance is really let me down, Bin child you know, I am a strong self-esteem, he actually said that I * big diploma is stolen as far as saying I every one, no matter then he is not angry words or a shock will be, I am saying a word, did not receive monthly wages on the left. Now think about would like to thank him, not his words, I need a longer period of time depressed.
Left the original company, I also considered more carefully Xiangleyixiang, you know, IT is after all not my strong suit, I say to those machines without much enthusiasm, so I put the finger back to the Let's retirement money lines, electric power. Later, the time is not long, I'm the lucky to find this now the power investment company.
Investment company you are probably aware, there are items on the long-term business trip, so stay in Shanghai, the time is not long.
The end of the first love of my hastily against getting bigger, you know, in the school which though we often claim to love games veteran, but really been to the battlefield are now is me and a few brothers bar ---- You do not laugh kid, I'll bet you have not touched the gun, right? Ha ha ha Haha, Xiangwai the Xiangwai, and see you giggle sample! ! ! (The author is a statement: here easy to confuse the public, is considering deletion)
Left Shanghai, I went to spent three months in Guangxi, a beautiful, and a good quiet day in the dam on the walk, activities, physical, psychological, quite a comfortable life. Later I came back, you know, my weight 27 kg, the average daily net increase of 32 meat呀! Frankly speaking, first I would like to kept trained on the girl, but gradually the work of more than one, plus its own deliberate forgetting, also faded.
After returning to Shanghai, a chance, I've met another girl. I still remember her name, called Ping.
You know from the original unit quit after the file is very difficult to get to. In particular, like me, relationships are still not stiff. Just as I was Cuoshou no strategy, this time, ping appeared. She is responsible for receiving me transfer the file to work, kindness, she patiently helped me each one of them getting fixed.
Know each other, she invited me to her house to eat dinner, can be said that I was able to sensed something, but that time does not matter about what kinds of attitudes I have not thought too much.
Later that night I was living in her home, but she is not you think, so young, her daughter is 9 years old.
Chang your mouth will not be so good is not good, then for some time and I can not believe he would do such a thing, I admit that a little bit of a laissez-faire. After some time, one day drunk, she says she loves me, still crying. I was the head of some of the painful burning wake up, and Bata Fu home, help her wash my bath, pick up a good spit dirty sheets, I was sitting on the sofa, quietly sitting Yiyewumian.
I began to reflect on their own, which is pursuing the do I? This is the love? Began to think of the first enlargement, dazed, but not stop himself.
In the end I doing? At this point, I think the game word.
Irresponsible game.
Early next morning I left, and later on the phone, the ping to apologize to me that he had continued to be my sister no harm, right? I am speechless, after saying that this why? I can not accept such an ambiguous relationship. Religious ties to a group like the broken flocs with silk wrap Who do think?
I never like the hypocrisy, because it runs counter to the true.
Yes, I am not always in the pursuit of truth Mody?
However, it is always really hurt too deep. I am a real know that they are sensitive creatures, but forced myself not sentimental, because once a girl made me understand: sentimental always told himself bitterly.
The girl, whose name I do not report the bar, but in the letter I always call him amber is to ping after I left the calm after a year of life to get to know. In an event with friends of friends, she appeared in my sight. Graceful, showing a very conservation looks like. I was again struck a chord.
Boring writing numerous letters had pinned an infinite mind sees the letter, I knew the girl that he has produced a very different kind of feeling.
In a letter I wrote: amber the name pleasing to the ear Yeah, I was a child often go to play in the mountains where there are a lot of pine trees, pine trees will be leaking, very smooth, very crystal clear, there is little hint of bark fragrant; this kind of thing a long time, the more valuable the more bar! I remember the school having had a lesson called amber, which is very valuable as a natural form, there are flies, as well as prey of spiders, right! ... ...
She was so excited I can remember, and remember a lot of good things, is bathed in natural wind and water, the kind of beautiful.
Her world, the original is so US-magic, there is no unusual light rendering, there is no familiar lament; living or memory in her, such as in a white scrolls on the arbitrary paintings, do not have to study it in the mouth by someone else Yun. Because of this relaxed and natural, this light would have Jiaoren Liulianwangfan beautiful.
Later, I mysteriously in a letter and wrote:
That sense, people are just to enjoy the charm of amber, but when people of the place is sad is that people often forget that their were shipped, in fact, often find themselves living in that beautiful amber ring in the it?
She quickly wrote a reply: the letter said, "Thank you for your letter, write nice; indeed, in life I often feel like trying to avoid bailing into the beautiful amber to turn into a beautiful forever amber fossils !----
I did not expect her to reply so quickly, but did not think things turned out that her life is not so easy;
The following excerpts from a number of sentences you listen to after listening to:
"Is it? Are you running away? Or because I said so before your self-imposed bar!"
"No, I really like the amber, but I would like to own a beautiful or that something else is always instantaneous, but, amber beauty is eternal."
"Even so, the process of the formation of amber is very difficult. In particular the kind of creatures hidden in it wrapped, but really condensed, then that is fine, you know, I also like Amber, but I is not because of difficult and opt-out, "I said.
I do not know whether that Zhefan can teach people to listen to understand, but I knew I love her, perhaps, be difficult.
In the often want to pull her hand a moment, I always felt a powerful force restricts itself, it is an insurmountable distance.
Sure enough, when I told her: "I love you" when we will know the answer.
"We like amber, yes, amber is very beautiful, but, that is being wrapped in layers of resin, when this time, through a crystal of that layer, you see a life-like little creatures, is ah, how beautiful呀! However, as you know, this beautiful, by far the most vulnerable, the most frightening thing is that she almost can not fire, then fire the enthusiasm of the general will of the outer layer of melted beautiful, yes from even closer, however, they melt a beautiful, beautiful disappeared, amber will lose his life ... ... "
She answered, in his eyes or his mouth, smile, very warm, but it is a cold and warmth.
"This is not very cruel treatment of their own?" I asked her.
She did not speak, eyes but looked at me, it is a kind of test, or a refusal? I had no way to determine.
Her heart is still alive should be it, otherwise why are the zeal like a beautiful amber do?
"You are afraid of being hurt, right?"
She did not answer. The reality is very cruel, and she may not know how to express themselves, for love, she might think I am still a bit naive components inside bar!
Living in Shanghai, has taught her a lot, perhaps set an example, may be seen and heard, the beautiful lessons have been too many too much.
I was hesitant about Guessing girls, I often questioned myself: do not Shuoai omnipotent?
I nearly said: it melts your bar! If you are a butterfly, then you launched into the new Come!
But the words to the throat, the pharynx to the stomach has gone. ---- I'm really not such a grasp of their own, which will be able to guarantee her a happy grasp of the free flight! She was not alone Love is flying up bar! Otherwise, they do not wrap themselves tightly in that the layers of amber!
Last letter I wrote:
However, then stay forever inside the resin will not be frozen? I do not want to see amber unconscious.
She wrote back, and written in a very short:
This is what I need many, many reasons for the sun! Have your photo in my body, I Zheke amber on the warmer!
I have nothing more to say, felt a powerless hit up, for the beautiful things, I have never been so sad.
Sometimes I feel like I really should burn up, to put the group out of resin, but the fear that all were burned.
The beauty is real, and yet is so cruel呀!
It adds a right, right? Take a look at the thought my words would not help that she had increased recently. I try to forget her, because I know she is very wise to make a choice, she knew that I treasure their own future, and she thought I do not worth it. I also know that, and now I can not afford her love, even if she gave me, I was what means to protect her?
When is a recall on the bar. You see, I said myself not sentimental, this would hurt herself. Men should be strong is not it?
Do not mind, I did not shed tears, you know I never cry, the university, I have not cried broken leg playing football. . . Go back to paper towels, I did not cry (The author is in mind: what did the slightest crystal lighting flashing in the pale-author).
Today and you are right to say, I am happy, not so much fun in a long time before. Now I'm preparing for some exam next month to open the entrance exam.
You see, tonight's moon really Yuan Zhen-liang, a good quiet, Bin child you remember, her second Mid-Autumn Festival, we are happy to sing what to forward to:
My dear girl, you like a curved moon that always accompany my heart.
This is the first song, how can they forget it?
Buffalobill
Night in Shanghai suburbs
Author: buffaloBill
