Author: fanmp (Tanks) --- beacon of hope for so long, only to write a survey trip to Hunan, feelings, I thought that I would write a more objective and rational number. Until two days ago ran out of school, Dongguan has been confirmed a little girl, watching her stay up all night working overtime because the eyes become red and swollen, it was found a matter of fact, faced with a child, in the face of poverty, at least I can never achieve a rational and cool. Hunan trip, completely makes my life a fork in the road toward another, and sometimes I even suspect that their accession to the light of hope is not the original has been lost too many of calm? In fact, my mind is very clear: loss of false calm, I got I did have.
When a train to Huaihua station at 5 am, due to arrive earlier, I would sleepwalk no clear, I went to the survey, accompanied by a half tooth brush niche scramble began shouting, asking me what good is not packed. Stumbled upon the train underground, unsafe extreme, stupefied to re-search of a pass on the train, and finally the Xingxing Ran to leave.
Out of the station, Tengen under the drizzle, the temperature actually lower than the past, when a dozen degrees in Guangzhou, I was immediately frozen in Buhang Liao. Can only say that you probably deserve it, Zhaoqing trip and did not let me learn to pay attention to weather forecasts in advance. Because there is no Quwang 1:00 in conjunction with the car, we decided to go to a niche in the Huaihua a temporary warming of the students there, look at the body.
Huaihua not too busy streets, especially in the early morning rain of such a view, feeling a bit worn, students told me that this is a district-level city streets. I nodded and started a little bit into his new role.
Drove out Huaihua Soon the road began to bump, and more going forward, mountain atmosphere more dense. Niche constantly telling me this is a village, it was a town. The so-called village is a few households, or more than a dozen families only. Beautiful scenery along the way, there have been rivers appear, rhododendron hillside and disappeared when the present and inadvertently on the red mountain which is another hill.
Because the cold, because the mountain shaking, and we drowsily drowsiness the past. Wake up, niche companies have been approaching the door. Quickly adjust the mentality a bit, they get off. Niche before the parents know my work to be carried out, so I am particularly enthusiastic, specially take care of my feelings, put a lot of dishes where less pepper.
Niche they are said to have been that the town is more prosperous, and also so a few families. Daoshi the door of the rape was a way to open a way, giving very Aura to feeling, the air was very fresh, including the distant mountains, the starry night, all I feel a kind of vacation. This feeling has continued, until the next day, and my heart began to hair blocked, and the third day, they feel completely a kind of collapse, and would like to immediately fled there to escape their own!
Let's start from the third day of it? 7 am to get up, and last night had been planned route, and today, we must investigate the information End of 10 children! Xu yesterday had learned here, the poverty and misery as a habit or even tradition, to the soldier's afternoon, I have been very strong as far as possible so that they do not intervene in other people's pain! Even if people looked at the empty walls, watched his father crippled body, watching her mother Leiruo walk, watching the 80-year-old grandfather Shuzhaoerduo listen to me, looking at the weathered grandmother sounded fills the eyes with tears, I remain trying to get himself as a little affection, but merely has a reasonable person to hear, until seeing that a girl named Su Ya-ling!
As we went to Great General Su Yu's hometown, the entrance to the village of that of the sandalwood trees at the trees ready to go I was very surprised about it, under the old tree is a large General Su Yu's house. Ya-ling is not in the cloudy list provided to me afterwards and I have been thinking: Sometimes it may be just for you taking the time to look at only one person may be looking for the person, perhaps the fate of a lifetime will therefore also change the !
Ya-ling circumstances, I postscript in her investigation has already been mentioned, and I so so long, and has also been Jigua Zhao she is because there is no one like her child has hurt me deeply. The kind of rare in their children self-confidence and tolerance, often gives me a kind of like pro-income pregnant with her feelings, even if all want to come now.
As Ya-ling, where they spend some time, seeing the mountains of darkness down, and we had to walk from there go down to the mountains, find a grandmother by orphans. However, elsewhere there are four children waiting for us to complete the survey! I was already at the edge of losing one's sense, stand by the roadside after a vain attempt to hold back any of the means of transport, cars, motorcycles, even bicycles are also spared. We rely on walking, so far the road is simply impossible to go to. Niche where I was anxious to see, they told me: we give up the child it, or we can only give up their other four children! This is simply stopped on the road than cars, and others is not a traffic car! I am really crazy, Genta Chao to: how do you know they not? Even ten thousand times attempt fails, the 10000 can be a zero of a successful! And we can ask the person who, by bike ah! I scream a good sense told me this is unrealistic: this place can not be poorer by a car to a stranger, let alone a bike is simply hard to find someone there.
I am self-willed child at home toward the direction of a fit of anger to go away. Finally, looking at a vehicle running away with the car and I had to make compromises, and no way, I must make a choice! So I turn back, mad way out of Su Yu's home, the tears began to fail to live up to fall again. In fact, I do not know why, but also know that should not blame the young male's. But I really losing control of the.
I cried, all the scenes have surfaced over the past: the father's grateful tears in their eyes, a tremble to take us step by step, to go out; grandmother, then the kind, old-age son in pain, so she is doubly loving grandchildren; mother, ah, you that the aftermath of post-natal leave, so you do not no longer afford to take care of themselves, you know how I escape from you drag your running backs to do? Grandpa ah, so much of the heavy, so you still standing, must know his own age so that children and grandchildren would have the wait of the Well? There is that in order not to drag his son and his mother up the mountain taking pesticides, you are now in heaven watching his son, so sterile it?
I cried so many children, then the stronger and more confident with, frolic with! Let's talk about difficulties, they seem born to learn patience, tells her to dream, they see their peers in the city also has a lively and vivid; referred to the parents passed away, it can not attempt to hide grief. We are all people, ah!
Me cry, bring the camera on the road of that frame a bad shock, and when to give children and the elderly taking pictures, press for a long time also Xiabu Qu, they have been posing as me photos, I fight, fight the pain of my camera and can not scroll through film, so I had to tell them: You should have photos inside, and turn more slowly.
I cried, that I can not have a chance to see an orphan her! Although I also gave her the information in accordance with Iraq's, but still I felt sorry for her. Why do I have come to the door, or leave her to it? Why do I can no longer hold on, maybe there will be cars parked! Why?
What is the purpose in the end this man alive? The face of so much suffering, why farmers in my unknown brothers and sisters can survive like that? I have walked the ancient pine tree before, and constantly asked this question. A note posted on a number of red trees, are some of the words of blessing for the children. Witnessed the tribe's old trees, you know what is in the support of their live?
I like the head, like a donkey, head down crying blasted away, any way the dust flies, I do not know either side of the so-called niche! I have to have a kind of release method, or else I find it difficult to continue the following work.
Objectively speaking, and not many people have mentioned in conjunction with the Shaanxi-so-poor children, have not seen someone's wearing only a pair of pants situation. However, I still can feel the existence of the poor of this devil, and sometimes he would stand in front of me looked down upon, as me, and I can only feebly bowed his head to desperately cry, as individuals, I'm so weak. I do not even have the courage like those lovely smile just like a child to live in the tears!
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