CF returned, after a quick four months, he was back. Strange Yeah, he and I are not very familiar with the ah, Ins and Outs also met four times a surface, but this is a fatal four side, he can no longer get rid of in my mind.
I was not a strange person who will always be love at first sight, I suddenly began to enjoy a complete stranger, perhaps I could not even his name, do not know. This is a difficult language to describe the feeling, the heart inside will be the emergence of a strong desire, hope, and this person together, do not want the future, the chances do not want to be together, so long as the event of such a person, the heart inside the kind of like the idea of a lifetime solitary life immediately disappeared.
CF is such a person. I do not even know his real age, they threw the trap on the inside, although close friends keep reminding me not to go in the other before the fall into the trap to fall into the trap. Met him, I changed a lot of ideas, I began to accept the much larger man than I am, (Before that, more than two years old than me who I would think that there is no way with communication of) started to smoke like men, of course, These are external things, is more important is intrinsic. . Because I am independent thinking, my attitude to life, I was different, my personality is flying high, very few people agree with me, because I was never Xiaoniaoyiren, because I never in front of coquetry boys , because I never do not think that I am not as weak boys, so I became a male is defined, rather than girls. I seem to have not had experience of being appreciated and recognized the feeling, it was a serious listen to me talk about my thoughts, serious analysis of my thoughts, give me a lot of encouragement, it was seriously told me, "You know what? You are a different kind of girl Yeah, you're smart, I rarely see a girl like you, your ideas are really very special, you enlightenment of the ... ... "
Yes, "the girl" is a special call to my CF, so no one has ever asked me if I will be very happy in the past such a call, but from his lifeless voice heard but are so nicely, I like to . I am changing.
He was also a surprise to know ah, sat in the Inn's garden, and people do not know of one not a chatting, he sits across from me at first I do not want to speak to him, because in terms of age he had I have far more than the capacity. However, after a few words I have a deep fall into the trap went on so that he broke into my heart. He is too good or am I too weak? How it can be easily Xianxia Qu? Just a conversation, we remember each other. People who know the road very soon to be separated, I really never thought we would meet again. I returned to my city, my life.
A month later, CF to leave the country, he has to go through my city, he was a wandering people, life is arbitrary, perhaps it is this sort of lifestyle is really only let him understand my feelings, a vagrant The people will surely understand a wandering mind.
In this way, CF through my city for two days, these two days the weather was so good, in mid-December, and every day the blue sky and white clouds, warm sun, such as in March. Sitting in a flower bed on the lake, the wind blew gently. Only the second time was like meeting an old friend in general, it is invigorating venting the heart that no one understands the problem and these issues will always be here in the CF recognized and appreciated by people who believe in the kind of feel the same warmth and sun. The chat is full of excitement to the dark, in order to catch the last bus to go home early separated. Home, sitting at a table a daze, thinking CDPLAYER to share music with the afternoon, he is quite the case looking at me, look at me from the very near a few minutes later with his very good to listen to the Mandarin speaking "Today's a good look at your eyes Oh!. " I know that a good look at my eyes, but I did not know was that a man tell me are so in nicely. Or in the same sunny afternoon, or in that lake, the water there are several ducks dive in the leisurely playing games, leaning against the fence or chatting happy life, suddenly, he stresses, "stretch your hand come. "I thought he wanted to see fake" fortune teller "palm readers asked to" a hand? "" casual!. " I reached out to the left hand, hold him tightly and then put his hands he had been with a string of Buddha bead down into my hands, I have not even come to reflect, how the one thing, but I remember that he has talked about this a bunch of Buddha bead is the home he left the temple from the home please, and I feel this beaded child is not just for him, beads, more is the home of the recall, but now In this way he gave me a gift what can I say?
Just to say thank you enough? An appointment to do their own thing and then have dinner with the separated, he'll get a visa, I still continue to go to work, to make a living.
Sometimes the time will be at a standstill, a three-hour wait would be so painful. I can not wait, he called me I would first hit in the past, the results of the Mandarin side nicely told me "I got a visa, and now collected his things, two hours after the car left the ... ..." I have no time to even ask why so decision not to tell me, do not talk about a good dinner together? How it can be said to stay away? I know for a wandering people, the he will not have any fixed things, and I know he will be left called to tell me "I've been gone." I do not know I was not going to send him, he and I were unfamiliar呀! Ideological struggle for an hour, suddenly heard a phrase used to look back memories, "memories of the time people in the face of only two choices --- regret it, or not to regret it There is no other choice."
I know that if I did not go to the station here, my choice would be what it is.
All the way mad dash passenger center, out of breath to find him, he had his back pack ready to get on the train, thank God I caught up. I do not know what can be said that, in fact, what is unable to speak, and thus, he sat in the car, I stood below, but there is no way to really see each other together. "Do you know what? I really want to take with you Sheung呀!" On hearing these words, when I really want to join Zuoshang Che, but it is not possible, I know who I was, I was doing What should I do what I can do, I will do, I'll get what ... ...
Thus across the distance of two meters, like two light-years away, stood there 10 minutes, as the tenth century. When starting the car, separated by glass windows can only be waved and waved when I saw him come up with a mobile phone, then a string of numbers again in the beating of my screen is placed in the ear listening to "Thank you to send me , let my mind a very warm feeling, in this strange city, someone came to see him, thank you ... ... "" Really, I hope you have such a feeling, not to speak more on the provincial point of telephone charges it, bon voyage !, "I interrupted his words and quickly hung up the phone, I do not want to cry the voices be heard, and I understand why he would only call for such cars have started, talking about these, and perhaps afraid, they could not walk by. Watching car disappeared into the cities. Also disappeared in my daily life, but will not disappear in my heart of.
Of course, this is already more than four months ago settled. Four months before, and I thought I had forgotten him, but how ever forget it ah, sunk to go too deep. However, if a person is an experienced person who can understand their own, is what a lucky thing ah, but that the piece goodly portion of luck, but it is a wandering the piece.
Over the years I forgot to use it? Forget forget forget that the greater the more they want to remember ... ... ... ... ...
Heart still hurts.
Author: xqiqiy
